This photo melted my heart.
I have to share something with you all that I never shared here. (Since I was mostly absent from the blog during the time I planned my wedding.)
My beautiful puppy passed away ten days before my wedding. It was a complete shock and came out of nowhere. She was 7 years old. I had her since she was 8 weeks. Here she is:
Here’s what I shared on Facebook the following day: “Yesterday I lost my sweet, beautiful Penny girl. I am heartbroken. She was my little buddy, my closest companion, my family. She moved and lived with me in 7 different homes, 6 different cities, and 2 states. She slept under the covers in my bed every night. She was a stealer of the covers, and sometimes pillow. She kept me company when I was sick or sad, and she seemed to just understand. She loved humans better than I ever will. I believe she enjoyed every minute of her life. I loved her more than words can say and I will miss her every day. This upcoming week is going to be the best of my life, and although I am grieving, I will embrace every drop of joy that it brings, because Penny would have wanted me to. That’s what she was about. Rest in peace my sweet girl.”
It was terrible timing. But at the same time, the timing made it easier. I wept every day for about a week, and then I had to pull myself together and get married. Which was, of course, the best thing I ever did. So the joy was entirely full and sincere.
Not to mention my now husband, who rushed over the moment I called with the terrible news. He rode his bike so fast from work to my house that his heart was nearly pounding out of his chest when he held my sobbing self in his arms. After consoling me for awhile, he moved her body to a safe place until we could bury her at my parents’ house. He cleaned up a terrible mess that she had made in her last moments, because I couldn’t bear it. (She died of a brain tumor, and during seizures she lost control of her bodily functions… it was not pretty.) Then he held me that night until I fell asleep and was there with me in the morning when I had to wake up without her for the first time. (We did not live together until after marriage so this was a big deal.) From that moment I knew with certainty that we could get through anything together. So that was another blessing in the midst of tragedy. He is wonderful.
I will miss my girl always.
And I still have my little man, Rocky, to fulfill my need for animal love. Here he is on my wedding day:
Right on my lap, where he always is.
So that’s my Monday moment. Hope it wasn’t too much of a downer for you guys. Just wanted to share. xo
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