Where Things Are Headed… I Don’t Know!

Photo by Andziackowo

Hello darlings. Well this is not the post that I thought I would be writing today. But I can’t really bring myself to write anything else at this moment, so I’m just going to tell you all what’s going on. I lost my job yesterday. My day job. For those who don’t know, I was working at a group home with teenage girls who had mental health and substance abuse issues. I loved it. Well, not all of it. It was hard on me emotionally some of the time, but I’ve been doing this kind of work for 6+ years now, so I was used to that. And there were things about the way things were managed there that never sat right with me. Although I truly adored the girls I worked with, and counseling them was very rewarding, I was tired, and ready to move on. But I was also comfortable (I have neophobia – fear of new things – don’t we all?) so I was probably going to stay there until kingdom come, out of fear, or laziness, or… something. So, God gave me “a kick in the pants” as my mom so delicately phrased it.

It came as a shock to lose my job, and in the immediate aftermath I was very sad and stressed out. I drove myself straight to the beach, and cried for about an hour. Then, throughout the rest of the evening, and today, I talked a lot to Jesus, and my human loved ones who encouraged me that God has a plan, that I was (and am) great at what I do, and that everything is going to be ok. Which it is. I honestly have no idea what God has in store for me. Being a counselor is ingrained in who I am, but I can do that in many ways. I am very involved in ministry as a volunteer, and it would be amazing if the Lord led me in that direction as a career path. Or I could go back to school, and finish my Master’s in Counseling, if the Lord leads me there. Or, in my wildest dreams, I could become a full time professional blogger, which could eventually fund and fuel my biggest dream, which is to be a foster mom. We’ll see! I’m excited to see what’s in store, but the unknown is also difficult and somewhat scary. But God will bring me through it, he always does.

I wanted to let you know because, although I will have much more time in the near future for blogging, I need a few moments and probably days to sort through my feelings and thoughts and dreams and plans. So I will be absent for a little bit, and then I will undoubtedly be back with an explosion of awesomeness and inspiration! Thank you for listening. You are dear to me. xo

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” -Proverbs 3:5-6 (It’s my life verse.)

Lauren - January 11, 2012 - 12:49 am

You are amazing Colleen! God has such great plans for you! And perfect timing! All of which you know already, but I thought I’d just state it again!

Melina - January 11, 2012 - 3:26 am

You have such a big heart! I have no doubt that God has amazing plans for you! It really is so hard to sit still and listen and watch where God wants to take you, I always feel like that is my constant battle since I’m such a control freak when it comes to planning ahead. You are so right to say you are excited, it is exciting! Just pray for God to close those doors that need to be closed and for the faith to walk through the doors He opens for you. Much love, you are in my prayers! <3

Jenna @ Heartcarry Press - January 11, 2012 - 4:53 am

So wowed by your faith and optimism Colleen- this post is so inspiring. I’m sorry it had to a be a kick, but I know you’ll be moving forward in an amazing new direction. Sending good thoughts your way!

Erica Garcia - January 11, 2012 - 1:59 pm

Oh love! I’ve lost two significant jobs in the past two years and I can assure you that it broke my heart. The process you are describing of grieving and searching and thinking about what is next – is all too familiar… Hang in there lady. You are loved.

Izabelle - January 12, 2012 - 12:16 am

You are so gifted Colleen and I’m sure that The Lord have an excellent plan for you & I will continue to follow your awesome blog! It’s interesting at times, life, sometimes you think that things that happen are bad, but in the end turned out being the best that could ever happen! Much love/ Izabelle @ 2 Brides

Laurel G - January 12, 2012 - 3:21 am

I’m sorry you are feeling low. Take strength in those who love you and support you! This will all turn around!

Kewain (@NolabelleSoiree) - January 12, 2012 - 4:07 am

I am so sorry you lost your day job!!! I will keep you in my prayers. Just hold on to the fact that everything does happen for a reason and when one door closes and better one opens. Soon enough you may be writing about something so great you never would have experienced at your job!!!

Erika {Borrowed&Bleu} - January 12, 2012 - 7:11 pm

Wishing you all the best as you move forward!

Alicia {The Charity Wedding} - January 12, 2012 - 9:33 pm

I’m so sorry you lost your job and I know that is hard, but I like your out look. I was unemployed for a full year and it was the BEST thing that ever happened albeit super stressful at the time. It lead to so many more opportunities, to me pushing myself to search for what I really loved, and to me creating my own opportunities. This will end well for you, I know it!

Adrienne O'Connor (Ruffles & Tweed) - January 12, 2012 - 10:03 pm

I’m sorry to hear about your job, but it sounds like it might be for the best, even though it may not feel that way right now. God definitely has a plan for you, and once you’re ready to move on and accept what has happened, I know that you will do great things. You are truly talented and will be a huge success – no matter what form that may be in. All the best to you – thanks for your honest post and for putting yourself out there!

Stephanie Elizabeth {Fab You Bliss} - January 16, 2012 - 4:33 pm

I’m sorry you lost your job Colleen, but this was definitely a kick in the pants. When one door closes, another one opens. And I’m sure what’s behind the new door is going to be spectacular! Can’t wait to hear all your new plans!!!

Layla Mayville {Simply Savannah Events} - January 16, 2012 - 7:57 pm

You have been thru a lot recently! I really know how you feel in so many ways. *A wee bit personal here: One day I was punched in the face by a 2nd grader since I was breaking up a fight, so the principal let me go home early, but I didn’t go home, I went to the beach, walked along the water and cried. A few weeks later my grandma died and I had a lot of stuff going on, so I actually left that terrible stressful job and realized it was for the better. Just know that even thru all these life struggles you have support and something better awaits you! Big hugs from a fellow TWIP!

Jessica@TWB - January 18, 2012 - 12:05 pm

Best of luck…looking forward to see what your next (awesome) step will be!

The Perfect Palette - January 18, 2012 - 4:12 pm

So sorry to hear this – but just keep talking to God and he will definitely guide you to the next phase. All things truly do happen for a reason.

xo, chrissy.

chandra ~ oh lovely day - January 19, 2012 - 5:49 am

I lost my day job 5 weeks after returning from my maternity leave (what kind of a-holes fire you after you just had a baby…my old bosses!). I hated my job and didn’t want to go back, but I just had a baby and NEEDED my job, so losing it was scary and hard. Let me tell you, 8 months later, I could not be happier! Everything else works itself out. Hang in there!

Elizabeth | Bridal Musings - January 22, 2012 - 11:49 pm

Wishing you all the best ~ it’s an exciting new chapter for you. Take this opportunity to follow your dreams!

bree [capitolromance] - January 23, 2012 - 10:00 pm

Colleen! I am so sorry I missed this post/only saw it now. I am SO so sorry to hear about losing your job. I was laid off a few years ago from a job I hate … and I still felt like garbage/cried at the time. I KNOW you will bounce back from this … and if there is anything I can do. Let me know. Sending hugs & happy, positive vibes from the East Coast xoxooxox

Orly {the boutique photographer} - January 25, 2012 - 2:16 pm

OOh big hugs Colleen, disappointments are Gods way of clearing out the old ready for the new. Just know you are not alone and you have God, your family, friends and us honey you have all you need right here.

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