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Hello darlings. Well this is not the post that I thought I would be writing today. But I can’t really bring myself to write anything else at this moment, so I’m just going to tell you all what’s going on. I lost my job yesterday. My day job. For those who don’t know, I was working at a group home with teenage girls who had mental health and substance abuse issues. I loved it. Well, not all of it. It was hard on me emotionally some of the time, but I’ve been doing this kind of work for 6+ years now, so I was used to that. And there were things about the way things were managed there that never sat right with me. Although I truly adored the girls I worked with, and counseling them was very rewarding, I was tired, and ready to move on. But I was also comfortable (I have neophobia – fear of new things – don’t we all?) so I was probably going to stay there until kingdom come, out of fear, or laziness, or… something. So, God gave me “a kick in the pants” as my mom so delicately phrased it.
It came as a shock to lose my job, and in the immediate aftermath I was very sad and stressed out. I drove myself straight to the beach, and cried for about an hour. Then, throughout the rest of the evening, and today, I talked a lot to Jesus, and my human loved ones who encouraged me that God has a plan, that I was (and am) great at what I do, and that everything is going to be ok. Which it is. I honestly have no idea what God has in store for me. Being a counselor is ingrained in who I am, but I can do that in many ways. I am very involved in ministry as a volunteer, and it would be amazing if the Lord led me in that direction as a career path. Or I could go back to school, and finish my Master’s in Counseling, if the Lord leads me there. Or, in my wildest dreams, I could become a full time professional blogger, which could eventually fund and fuel my biggest dream, which is to be a foster mom. We’ll see! I’m excited to see what’s in store, but the unknown is also difficult and somewhat scary. But God will bring me through it, he always does.
I wanted to let you know because, although I will have much more time in the near future for blogging, I need a few moments and probably days to sort through my feelings and thoughts and dreams and plans. So I will be absent for a little bit, and then I will undoubtedly be back with an explosion of awesomeness and inspiration! Thank you for listening. You are dear to me. xo
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” -Proverbs 3:5-6 (It’s my life verse.)